July 11th, 2013
With Liberty and Bicycling For All: Kennetta Gunns
(originally posted on bikeleague.org)
The League celebrated the important role bicycling plays in the recovery of wounded warriors in their July/August issue of American Bicyclist. We are now sharing these amazing stories on our blog. This is Kenetta Gunn’s story.
When I returned from my first and only deployment in 2007, I learned I faced two challenges that would not allow me to deploy again: Snapping Hip Syndrome and Retinitis Pigmentosa.
The hip problems left me unable to run without pain and the fear of an unexpected fall. Retinitis Pigmentosa is a degenerative eye condition that causes the retinas to dies. I have struggled with coming to terms with these diagnoses for five years now. I never knew that I really needed help dealing with it until I came to the Warrior Transition Unit.
When I arrived in Fort Hood, I was extremely guarded person. Always a smile, but never a word of invitation to come into my world – and it seemed, the longer I stayed, the more I felt like I didn’t deserve to be there. I was not hit with any direct or indirect fire. I never watched one of my battle buddies go down. I caught a “cold” my first week in the sandbox and came home with aggravated conditions. My thought was “Who am I to claim the spot of a wounded warrior when there are so many others out there that could use more help?”
For months, I kept myself on the outside until I met Andi Talley. I owe her my sanity for introducing me to cycling. One day while we were supposed to be having fun and working as a team decorating our company, someone I didn’t know said something I didn’t like. It upset me so much that I walked out — angry and frustrated for joining in the “fun” in the first place. Andi stopped me from losing it completely that day — and invited me to join her on a bike ride.
We trained, and I struggled, for the Ride 2 Recovery Gulf Coast Challenge. Day One of that Challenge was a 77-mile day. I had never been “in the saddle” or that long in one day. It was painful and terrifying but finishing that day was amazing.
Finishing that week long ride has saved my life. I’ve learned that I have anxiety that causes me to isolate myself. It causes me to think and “hear” things that are not true. Cycling with Project Hero and R2R helps me to put things into perspective. I’m sure I’ll continue to struggle with worrying and stress over many things, but when I’m on the bike, I don’t have the time or the luxury to allow those worries to rule me. I can only think of one thing at a time. And if that thing is not on the road underneath me, THAT is not the time.
Cycling not only allows me to remain physically fit as I have been for 17 years of military service, but also encourages me to strive for emotional fitness. It took about five years to work myself into an emotional frenzy and four months of cycling to help me manage it. That’s a pretty nice tradeoff if I do say so myself!